Humans are emotional creatures, what can I say? Just like the weather, the emotions can change quickly. So, I have rethunk the whole homeschooling thing. After visiting the private school, I have decided to put my best foot forward and dedicate myself to educating my children. I am the only one who can do it the way I believe it should be done. This has not been an easy decision and I know it is going to be a long, arduous journey, but I feel committed to it.
Today, as I was driving to church I listened to "Music and the Spoken Word". It happened to be the spoken word part of the program. Lloyd Newell was talking about adversity. Sometimes we wondered why we have adversity. He suggested that it is because it is our opportunity to acheive greatness. How can we acheive greatness if everything is easy? The first thought that popped into my head was, "I don't have any adversity so how can I truly acheive greatness?" I am not one to ask for trials and tribulation. But then I instantly realized that my struggle with home education and dealing with my children IS my tribulation.
So, it is my opportunity to acheive greatness, to let my children see the greatness within themselves and do marvelous things with their lives. But more importantly, it is my responsibility to teach them that they are children of the most High God, that they have infinite worth, that they are smart and can think great things. I can teach them not to settle for mediocrity but to reach beyond what they ever thought they were capable of doing.
With that perspective in mind, I am going to create the best school that I possibly can for my beautiful little boys. This means that not only will I educate them in the things I am comfortable with, but I will also employ tutors to teach them science, Spanish, art, etc. I am going to make a financial and emotional investment in them. It will me require me to say "NO" to kindly requests for help during the week because my children come first and my committment to them is my top priority. I am going to put both my feet in and get to work.